I’m not sure what has happened… but I feel so much calmer and I’m not getting as angry. Of course, I still get anger thoughts in my head which will go away eventually. I feel so much lighter and happier. I’ve been very inquisitive on tours and asking lots of questions. I’m more personable now. I like people now!
I know that if I continue my horrible anger that it will drive people away. So, I’ve taken a new attitude of life. I feel so much better!! Ivan thinks I’ve skipped Jen 2.0 and I’m the brand new Jen 3.0. I’m like a new, better version of Windows (We all now Windows Vista was super slow and very crappy!).
I’ve been talking a lot more now. I want to learn so much and do more things. I can’t wait to learn swing dancing and learn how to sew when I get back to Vegas. I feel ALIVE!!!
I have adopted two mottos:
Keep Calm and Deal with it — can be Shut Up and Deal with it, but it sounds more positive with Keep Calm
‘Bahala na’ which is a Filipino saying my mom used to say a lot. There’s lots of different meanings.. but I always thought it meant Whatever may be, will be. Check out another meaning here (search for Bahala Na). I think it’s funny that is rhymes with Mahama na.